Hmm.. so much to say.. just not on here.

So I have discovered something this last year. Well.. I seem to talk a lot. It's funny that I started a blog and yet, find it hard to think of something to write. I think that for some reason, as I am talking with someone, I just keep going (because it's usually not important and I hate quiet in a conversation.). Yet, on here, no one is listening, so technically, I could write whatever I wanted. But what if someone does read it? Would my rambling really speak to them? Or would it be just that, rambling and non-sense? God's challenged me to be quiet and listen and I pretty much am failing at that. I guess that's why it's so hard to write something. I want it to be of value, to encourage others. There's so many things I could talk about.. decorating cakes (which I do not claim to be a pro here), photography (again, same thing), the Bible, Jesus, my kids, my husband, dogs, cats. I think you get the drift. Hmm.. The Lang's Travelling Circus. Boy has it ever been. Just when I think we're settled somewhere, we get moved again. That 'stability' is shaken. But what am I stabling myself on? Should it shake because of the things that are uncertain? Where should my stability be? Or better yet, who? If there is one thing that I have learned being married to the military, is that everything changes. You hurry up and wait. When Hunny and I first got married, I was a huge planner. 6 months from now, we are going to be going on vacation.. 6 years later, God has changed my heart. Besides all the 600 moves we've made and all the changes that have come with them and all the worrying, moving half way across the world was the most peaceful for me. In every move we made, my heart raced, doubts set in wondering if this was the right choice, my stomach was in knots. It was crazy. But something was different this time around. This decision to move half way around the world was prayed about and weighed out with the pros and cons. No matter what decision we were going to make, it would be the right one, we just had to take that leap of faith. The minute we made the decision for us to come here with my hunny, total peace filled my heart and I didn't worry about it because God has always, always taken care of us and has provided for us. And now.. here I sit. After a year and a half of being in South Korea.. yes that southern section underneath North Korea, I seem to have forgotten that peace. Why was moving here so peaceful? It's not as though I trust God any less. South Korea seems to be in so much danger with the North looming above us, and yet, I feel so much safer here than in the states. I do know that God will work everything out. I know that he is preparing our way as he promises in his Word. He knows our thoughts before we can finish them. He knows. So I do have peace about moving back to the states because I know he has always provided and will continue to do so no matter where we are. But just because I know it, doesn't mean I have full peace about it. I'm working on it though.